Catholic GuiltPosted: March 31, 2016
dievca had a family member pass away a couple of months ago. The family member lived close to their sibling (2 doors down), but they never really got along. A strange and uncomfortable situation for most of dievca’s life, but there was still a symbiotic relationship between the siblings. They leaned on each other as they got older, to get through – but never happily.
At the funeral, a Catholic Mass, dievca sat close to her living Aunt holding her hand and just being there. They commented on the color of the casket (navy), the beauty of the flowers, how nice it was to have a live choir and they followed the Mass (stand up, sit down).
When it came time for Communion, dievca stood up to aid her Aunt to the altar — her Aunt shoved dievca past with a comment “I can’t go to communion, I haven’t been to confession.”
And dievca has gone to confession?
dievca received Reconciliation in 4th Grade at Catholic School. Reconciliation took over for Confession when she was a child. In case you need a short description:
Confession: Behind drapes in a confessional, you do not see the priest as you confess your sins.
Reconciliation: Telling your sins Face to Face with a priest.
dievca hasn’t gone to reconciliation since she was 10 years old. Do you know how many sins you can commit in the Catholic Faith in 35+ years? If God was going to strike dievca down, he has had the chance on multiple occasions.
But, after her Aunt’s comment, dievca felt guilty.
Same stuff, different year.
(If dievca offended anyone…she is sorry. This is her own personal relationship with growing up Catholic – the good and the bad. she finds her behavior and the behavior of others to be ridiculous sometimes, especially in regards towards Religion. But, dievca would be pleased to know and happy for you if you find peace within your own Religion.)