But if he goes…I am going to miss him fiercely.

I am afraid that I am going to babble to you the next few days. It’s my way of pushing through and letting off steam.  This release helps minimize my explosion of upset emotions about Dad. The meltdown will come, the good news is that you will probably be in India by then~

Airline ticket – check ($400)
Dial 7 – check ($29)
Rental Car – check ($97)

I feel like I won’t know anything until I see Dad with my own two eyes.
Maybe I was born in Missouri instead of Illinois~

I know I’ve said this, but I NEED to say it, again.
I have amazing friends. You included. I don’t feel alone.

Well, here we go.
He could live or he could die and I don’t have any control over the results.
Let me be calm and breathe.

This is why I kept going back so many times, I have nothing left to say – it has all been said.

My Dad knows I love him and I know he loves me.

But if he goes…I am going to miss him fiercely.

who else will give me hell and tell me that I am out of the will? d.

8 Comments on “But if he goes…I am going to miss him fiercely.”

  1. Marty says:

    Being there is extremely important to everyone

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    • dievca says:

      My brother felt like he cried Wolf, but if the anti-seizure drip didn’t work, we would have had a different story to tell. I was just fine with going and my brothers needed help with my Mom. She’s a handful~

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  2. Cinn says:

    Hugs my friend. Sending love

    Liked by 1 person

  3. I know those feelings. Sending you love and hand-squeezing. ❤️ 💔

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    • dievca says:

      Thank you, Ash. Dad is out of ICU – but he doesn’t have the “fire” he normally has and it worries me. We will see how rehab goes. Right now, I’m trying to make sure my Mother eats and takes her meds correctly.


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