God closes a door…

I got screwed royally by someone on Tuesday evening/Wednesday morning. It was the third time I went out of my way for this person and their child. I was trying to give them the benefit of the doubt, put down confusion due to lingual and cultural differences. I lost money, time and the chance to fly back to my parents this week.

Pissed….I was just pissed. Furious. Feeling used.

Then Wednesday afternoon, I had insult upon injury with this same person. Steam was coming out of my ears. A couple of friends talked me down, but they couldn’t contradict that I was f*cked over.

Look, we have all been here before~

But, after the shit — I had two excellent opportunities open up. One actually came back to me from 2010.  Soothing my ego, building up my self-worth. Putting my being screwed into perspective. It wasn’t me and anything I did – it was her.

“When God closes a door, He opens a window.”
how trite
how appropriate

What makes the cliché above all the more embarrassing is its bizarre origin. Given its pervasive use in the church, you’d think it came from some pseudo-theological work or apocryphal book—something close to the truth, in relative terms.

But no. Instead, it comes from The Sound of Music.

Let’s be honest. I got lucky that efforts from my past work came back to me in the form of positive payback. And I felt better when the crappy person started to do her same shit to someone else and I was able to warn them of the issues. They followed my recommendations.

Yes, I am going to run into the crappy person, over and over – so I plan to wear this t-shirt:

(click photo to buy)

Not sure if it is a reminder for me…or her.
Who am I fooling? she won’t get the reminder and I’ll need it.

Stand Back

like everyone,
dievca has a lot going on right now

Master hasn’t been there for her,
He likes everything light and friendly

so dievca avoids sharing,
and digs in hard to stand up

that act of dominance
comes with a brusque wind

it also brings something else,
a F*ck you, F*ck me Attitude

which is not anyone’s fault,
it’s a form of protection

just be careful around dievca,
under the fire is … fragility


given time she’ll re-find her ladylike,
until then its Stevie Nicks and alcohol


No one looked as I walked by
Just an invitation would have been just fine
Said no to him again and again
First, he took my heart, then he ran

No one knows how I feel
What I say unless you read between my lines
One man walked away from me
First, he took my hand, take me home

Stand back, stand back
In the middle of my room
I did not hear from you
It’s all right, it’s all right
To be standing in a line
Standing in a line
I would cry

Do not turn away, my friend
Like a willow I can bend
No man calls my name
No man came

So I walked on down away from you
Maybe your attention was more
Than you could do
One man did not call
He asked me for my love
And that was all

Stand back, stand back
In the middle of my room
I did not hear from you
It’s all right, it’s all right
To be standing in a line
Standing in a line
Standing in a line

So I walked on down the line
Away from you
Maybe your attention was more
Than I could do
One man did not call
Well, he asked me for my love
That was all

Written by Prince Rogers Nelson, Stevie Nicks • Copyright © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Universal Music Publishing Group

Someone watched over me…

Walked past 23rd and 7th at 5:30 pm,
walked past -again- at 7:30 pm.

Missed getting hit by an hour.

Someone or something was watching out for me and my friends.

Immediate feelings? Not scared. Pissed.

Maybe if I was the one who was hit, I would feel differently, of course.

No matter where something happens…

Who are these people who care so little about Life?

I believe in Karma and payback can be a b**ch.