You are alive because of me~

The idiom: Сенің арқаңда күн көріп жүрмін
Literal translation: “I see the sun on your back.”
What it means: “Thank you for being you. I am alive because of your help.”

Everyone needs a little help.

People have different needs.

Don’t assume because you are strong and I am strong that we have no needs.
Not True.

I see the sun on your back.
You see the sun on mine.


Gustave Adolphe Désiré Crauk, Le Combat du Centaure, 1900. Photo: 1971 Robert Doisneau

Walk side by side,
listening and sharing.

Gain strength with skin to skin contact,
comfort through olfaction.

If one cannot regroup via travel,
traveling though the mind helps.

Look at beauty with someone close.
Dream through their eyes.

If that is not possible,
just remember you are loved.

Photo: Robert Doisneau, Sidelong glance, 1948


What the caterpillar calls the end of the world, the Master calls a butterfly.
Richard Bach

You are the butterfly.

Sarah Burton for Alexander McQueen SS2011, "Butterfly Dress"

ˈkəmfərt fo͞od/

com·fort food
ˈkəmfərt fo͞od/
  1. food that provides consolation or a feeling of well-being, typically any with a high sugar or other carbohydrate content and associated with childhood or home cooking.

Sexy, it is not, but sometimes your Sir/Madame (and yourself) need to be served and warmed via childhood memories. Traveling the World or dealing with Family/ Work stress: Midwestern Meat and Potatoes comes as comfort. (That’s what dievca’s Brother says~)

dievca’s Basic MeatLoaf:

2 eggs
2/3 cup fine dry bread crumbs or 2 cups soft bread crumbs (4 pieces)
1/2 finely chopped medium onion
2 tablespoons chopped parsley
1 teaspoon salt
1/2 teaspoon dried leaf sage, basil, or oregano, crushed
1/4 teaspoon black pepper
2 pounds lean ground beef, lamb, or pork
1/4 cup ketchup
1/2 cup water

In a large bowl combine everything. dievca uses her hands to mix. Lightly pat mixture into a dome shape or use a 9×5 loaf pan.

Bake in a 350 degree F (175C) oven for 1.5 hours or until internal temperature registers 160 degrees F (70C).Add ketchup to the top as a glaze in the last 10 minutes.

Roasted Fingerling Potatoes:

In a casserole dish, mix together potatoes, olive oil, parsley, garlic, salt and pepper. Roast for 20 minutes at 350F/175C or until the potatoes are tender.

If you want crispier skins, roast at 425F/ 220C.

Add a small salad to even out the heart attack factors and be cozy while eating.
Lose the stress. XO

Voila! Serving in a different way.
from dievca’s home to yours. 🏙


You are better at expressing your emotions and that does allow you to let off steam. 
But I am worried about you because there was a hint of bitterness in the last message.
With Love,
Sent from Mobile Mail

List of Words for Feelings
feeling or expressing bitterness or indignation at having been treated unfairly.
(of people or their feelings or behavior) angry, hurt, or resentful because of one’s bad experiences or a sense of unjust treatment.
I haven’t been treated badly by most people, so I don’t think bitter or resentful describes me.
I thought I was more:
(especially of a statement or idea) boring or uninteresting because overfamiliar.
or as a verb
exhaust the patience or interest of; bore.
reluctant to see or experience any more of; tired of.
That’s not quite right either.
dissatisfied, especially with one’s circumstances.
causing one to feel drained of energy or vitality.
I cannot find the word to describe where I am…
Well, if you think me on the edge of bitter — maybe I can be bittersweet chocolate 🙂
(life gives you lemons, make lemonade)
M’s reply below:

You are not bitter. That’s not you.
But yes, you seem really tired.

Sent from Mobile Mail
I’m staying with enervated, but do you have a word that might work for me? 

Wishing You Were Here (Chicago/Beach Boys 1974)

Not one of Master’s favorite bands,
but Chicago is a favorite of dievca’s
and the song is appropriate after 3+ weeks of Master’s travel.

Have a good Mellow Monday.

While you were gone~self-care

It has been a tough few weeks. The decision for a feeding tube, rather than hospice was a relief. Getting help for Mom was a second relief – though I still call about 4 times a day, each meal + medicine times.

A personal care moment was needed.

A lovely shower after work relaxed the muscles ~

A glass of wine soothed the mind ~

Lotion massaged all over my body and lube to the ass and pussy. Yes, to the anal plug.

Iroha Fit Mika Yellow

Accoutrements acquired.
Beginning with a gentle touch. I massaged my breasts and my pussy. Laying on my back with the anal plug squeezed between my plump cheeks.

Feeling the clit swell and become more sensitive. I took my time, continuing to massage my body, willing it to focus and feel.

Adding the hood and penis gag, allowed me to move into my head and create images in my mind to motivate my body. The mind is a powerful tool. Switching from my finger to the long vibrator caused the anal plug to vibrate. Exquiste.

Sitting on the edge of orgasm allowed the flow of pleasure chemicals to course through my body until the desire to orgasm started to overwhelm my mind. The short vibrator touching the swollen clit put me over the razor edge I had danced upon.

After the orgasm hit, my pussy milked the long vibrator with a constant pulse. My anus quivering.

Breathing deep, I flipped on to my belly to recover in the sun.

Dreaming of a possible second round.