A day of little sleep.
A day of barely functioning.
A day of minimal production.
A day of of waste?
Or was it a day of healing?
~putting one foot in front of the other~
Photo: Lane Coder - Underwater Photography
A trip to the Zoo
A rinse at a beach shower
Red Eye Home
It’s been a lovely trip, but its nice to get back to Master.
KIBBEH NAYE BEIRUTIEH
LEBANESE THYME SALAD
KIBBEH BI LABAN
ATAYEF & VEAL BACON
Ilili was ‘hopping’ on a Tuesday Night. The bar, two large rooms and outside dining was full. Look, NYC – like other places, went through a long haul with COVID-19 numbers – NYC locals are ready to GET OUT. It was a beautiful vibe last night, and the amazing work from the Vaccine developers made it happen. A HUGE ‘Thank You’ to them.
(PS. Yes, the economy of NYC is based on tourism, but selfishly – not running into any tourists is a great treat.)
Growing Old – Matthew Arnold
What is it to grow old?
Is it to lose the glory of the form,
The lustre of the eye?
Is it for beauty to forgo her wreath?
—Yes, but not this alone.
Is it to feel our strength—
Not our bloom only, but our strength—decay?
Is it to feel each limb
Grow stiffer, every function less exact,
Each nerve more loosely strung?
Yes, this, and more; but not
Ah, ’tis not what in youth we dreamed ’twould be!
’Tis not to have our life
Mellowed and softened as with sunset glow,
A golden day’s decline.
’Tis not to see the world
As from a height, with rapt prophetic eyes,
And heart profoundly stirred;
And weep, and feel the fullness of the past,
The years that are no more.
It is to spend long days
And not once feel that we were ever young;
It is to add, immured
In the hot prison of the present, month
To month with weary pain.
It is to suffer this,
And feel but half, and feebly, what we feel.
Deep in our hidden heart
Festers the dull remembrance of a change,
But no emotion—none.
It is—last stage of all—
When we are frozen up within, and quite
The phantom of ourselves,
To hear the world applaud the hollow ghost
Which blamed the living man.
Unlike the poem states – dievca still feels flashes of being young. she has hints and memories of free movement, but she wonders if this poem applies to her Mother’s age when memories dim and movement is slim. Note: that dievca is saying this as she is elevating and heating a knee which was painful upon awaking -trying to remember her name.
Photo above from an article on aging and beauty at the Ground Truth Project.
1. Positive people don’t confuse quitting with letting go.
2. Positive people don’t just have a good day – they make a good day.
3. For the positive person, the past stays in the past.
4. Show me a positive person and I can show you a grateful person.
5. Rather than being stuck in their limitations, positive people are energized by their possibilities.
6. Positive people do not let their fears interfere with their lives.
7. Positive people smile a lot.
8. People who are positive are great communicators.
9. Positive people realize that if you live long enough, there are times for great pain and sadness.
10. Positive people are empowered people – they refuse to blame others and are not victims in life.
The wrung-out feeling of being so emotionally spent you have actually run out of sympathy for anyone else.
dievca was in this space during the beginning of the pandemic – a drunk email from a friend triggered a direct reaction where dievca stated that she had no empathy/sympathy left in her body for her friend’s needs and drama. Worry for her parents, limited working, everyone unsure about safety protocols for COVID-19, challenging political environment, etc. took up her reserves. dievca didn’t realize there was a name for the feeling or condition.
Lately, she has just noticed that her body tension is diminishing and that wrung out, lack of energy for others feeling has lightened.
Is anyone else feeling better?
dievca hopes so!
Sitting at home.
Time to slip away,
To your Sir or Madam.
Don’t forget the healthy aftercare
dievca’s good friend in Europe has found a similar solution as to how many New Yorkers are getting through ‘social distancing”…
Looks like her friend has found a really good bottle of wine. 😉
Work with what God gave you~
It’s been grey in NYC. dievca has tried to find a bit of sunshine to get through the day. Her Zadig & Voltaire “Amour” Sweater has been pulled out and put to use:
But, she needs more…
Here’s where she is going, maybe a couple of suggestions will speak to you:
- Talk to kids.
- Play with kids.
- Play like a kid.
- Learn something new (play a new sport or game, learn how to cook a new dish).
- Get outside, visit nature.
- Breathe Deep.
- Smell a Rose.
- Help someone in a small way (by carrying their groceries or help them up the stairs).
- Wear a favorite outfit.
- Spend time with your pet.
- Nurture romance (spend time just kissing your partner, buy a surprise gift, write a love letter).
- Lose yourself in a great book.
- Laugh and smile, no matter how you’re feeling.
- Sing out loud.
- Connect authentically with friends and family, sharing your vulnerabilities and happiness.
- Dance. If you can’t dance, just skip, gallop or run.
- Look around your World and appreciate it.
- Pay a compliment to a total stranger.
- Listen to “feel good” music.
- Serve others. Volunteer.
- Set a goal, then work to reach it.
- Enjoy the silence.
- Write a thank you letter or call someone for no particular reason other than just to say “I appreciate you.”
- Get messy (go barefoot, play in the sand).
- Eat a healthy meal.
- Offer to teach someone a new skill.
- Read a poem.
- Turn your errands into an adventure (make a game out of finding the shortest route through the store or spotting a VW bug while driving there).
- Take a nap in the sun.
- Ask someone for help and appreciate their sharing.
- Watch a favorite old movie for the hundredth time.
- Discover a new smell.
- Get rid of stuff. (Give to friends/family, resell, and donate – lightening your load and making someone else’s life better.)
- Watch a sunrise or sunset.
- Make a commitment to change a bad habit, then do it.
- Create something.
- Eat a cupcake.
- Spend an evening by candlelight.
- Take a walk in the rain.
Or, maybe, try this sweater: