But if he goes…I am going to miss him fiercely.

M.
I am afraid that I am going to babble to you the next few days. It’s my way of pushing through and letting off steam.  This release helps minimize my explosion of upset emotions about Dad. The meltdown will come, the good news is that you will probably be in India by then~

Airline ticket – check ($400)
Dial 7 – check ($29)
Rental Car – check ($97)

I feel like I won’t know anything until I see Dad with my own two eyes.
Maybe I was born in Missouri instead of Illinois~

I know I’ve said this, but I NEED to say it, again.
I have amazing friends. You included. I don’t feel alone.

Well, here we go.
He could live or he could die and I don’t have any control over the results.
Let me be calm and breathe.

This is why I kept going back so many times, I have nothing left to say – it has all been said.

My Dad knows I love him and I know he loves me.

But if he goes…I am going to miss him fiercely.

who else will give me hell and tell me that I am out of the will? d.


Looking at the footage~

M.

I don’t want to be that person…you know…the one who is intolerant and cannot see outside of the box. The one who says something hateful without knowledge. The one who lumps people together.

So, I just weep for the lost ones and their families, spinning my wheels in my head how the problem could be solved.

And come up with…..nothing.

Do prayers work?

If not, I am useless.

So, I weep.

d.

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